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I am back!

2010-06-11T08:20:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl, I am back. Blog has been super dead but I guess it does not matter since noone reads that. GG for a short getaway tmr, is really excited about that coz finally after half a yr of 'torture', we get to rest. Hmm, I admit I do miss the kids even though they always give me lots of trouble.

My dearest is gonna be back soon. I am amazed that I actually survive half a yr without her in S'pore. No sakae buffet, no chomping, no real retail therapy, no crapping. I am waiting for u to be back. Meanwhile, enjoy ur tour <3

Ps.I have decided to try my very best not to emo so often. If it is not about life and death, I should not even be bothered (thx someone for telling me that). I will just try my very best.And thanks to all who walked me thru this emo path. I really do love u all even if I dun say ((:

Emo-ing

2010-02-21T02:07:00.002+08:00

Another sleepless nite.
I feel like crying out loud.
And I can only write this here.
I know the fb is my privacy.
But i guess some colleauges of mine may think that I can kidish to be emo-ing.
I dunno why I even care abt what they may think.

Everyday I write happy things in fb,
coz I dun wanna show them that I am emo-ing.
I know some are really nice ppl who will ask me if I am okay,
but i guess some still think that it is ridiculas that someone can be so emo.
They never understand me,
or perhaps they never understand my life.
But they dun have to anyway.

That day my P suddenly have a talk with me,
he called me down and then he said:
"I just want to keep in touch with u. To keep myself updated abt u."
For a moment i think he is nice,
but the next moment I start wandering,
"Is he checking on me?"
"Is he thinking that I am nt doing enuf?"
CRAP.. All the negative tots come out at once..

I dunno, I dunno, I dunno...
I seem to care what that particular some1 says.
The words, the actions really make me restricted,
and make me feel like a fool.
The words, the actions affect my mood easily.
I know I shouldn't care less,
but I dunno why these actions disturb me terribly.

No more emo-ing.
Be happy.
Look positive.
God Bless me.

PS. I think life without u is really very lonely. No1 talk to me when I needed a talk. No1 walks with me when I wanted a stroll. I guess u are still the best of the best, who always accommodate my nonsense and accept my difference. YES, I am missing u terribly right now.

life

2010-01-08T21:14:00.003+08:00

life has been rather shitty for me and the rest too.. everything just seem so diff to cope.. i dunno wat is happening but i really feel sick and tired of the real world. i wan to escape, to somewhere faraway and nv come back again.. such a stressed up life here.

Ps. and i feel like a nanny more than my actual job. i feel sick and tired coz i have just heard how shitty the ft is. backstabbing, is this wat chers should be??

2010-01-03T14:48:00.002+08:00

the day that i dun like most has finaly arrive.
i think all staff and pupils should be playing their harts out now,
coz tmr is gg to be back to normal and time to work hard.
no matter how unwilling i am,
i am still glad that sch reopen.
if not, at the rate i am eating and slping,
my hse door is gg to be too small for me.

LOL.

tmr should be sports day for me,
running after the dear darlins.
as much as i am afraid to face the cute darlins,
i dun have any choice.
Pls pray for me,
to come back home in one whole piece.
but most importantly,
pray that i am able to wake up at 5am,
coz i need to reach sch at 650am.
Pls hear me dear lord.
Thanks for ur love.

2009-12-31T16:07:00.002+08:00

2010 is almost here
in another 8 hrs
not much feel abt that
it is just another day, isn't it?
dunno what to wish for
nth special
instead of wishing
why not we be realistic
and work towards it
after 21, u will feel urself old
but thanks to the awesome groups of frens
i was nt alone on occasions
i dun have many frens
but we do share the same thinking
thanks to those that appeared in my life
all of u came into my life for a purpose
and thanks for making my life more interesting than ever.
u are loved ((:

Ps. i will rmb what p says:
reached for the sky
coz if u fall
u will land on the clouds
but if u dun aim high
and when u fall
u will hit the ground
and the coconut will fall on you.

very lol, but is quite true.
dare to dream he says.

2009-12-29T20:05:00.003+08:00

I dun like farewell, but i am facing it tmr )): coz the dearest is gg away tmr, on her 21st birthday. i am a emo freak, but when i face these things, my tears will nt drop in front of anyone. Sometimes I think i keep to myself too much, but then that's me.

Dearest baobei, just want to say HAPPY 21ST BDAE!!! I think i will really miss u. I hope u will be fine there, eat more and dun become frozen dragon. Take gd care of urself and put on more clothes. Do write me letters okay, and tell me when u coming back ((:

All the best to u and to me. My kids will keep me busy, so half a yr should be fast ((: See u when June comes. LOVE

Lonely christmas?

2009-12-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone ((:

2009-12-24T04:30:00.004+08:00

WOOHOO !!! I am back ((: finally. After not getting in touch with the blogger thingy for so long, I am surprised that I still can manage to change a new blogskin. As I am super lazy (u all know me la), I have decided to use this blogskin till I have seen a nicer one.. HEE.

Anyway life has always been a roller coster for me, all the ups and downs (that is life, isn't it?). A new year is coming, lets forget all the downs and recap the ups.Lets start with the later half of the yr ((:

1st, I managed to survive my half a yr in sch, having to see the kids and struggling with the courses at arc. Practicum coming, I am super scared. sometimes I really wonder, am i gd enuf for the job? it looks like ppl are doing a lot, and i am doing nth like that. LOl. I shall reconsider 1 and 1/2 yrs later, since i can't make a decision now also.

2nd, the jie meis and 1 jiefu went for a five days malaysia trip. We went to genting, ipoh, penang, kl and malacca. A great trip, nth much to buy, but the company makes u happy. One thing that i think make us jie meis so close is that we share the same ups and downs in work. lol.. whenever we tell others how angel or how devil our kids are, no one understands, so i really do appreciate the kopi sessions that we have every now and then to clear our stomach full of complaints.. hee.. although i must really say that most of the time we really eat too much.. haha.

last event will be the celebration of my dearest baobei's 21st bdae. I already lost count to how many 21st bdae i attended this yr and baobei's bdae is gg to be the last one and the most special one. Coz the participants are only me and her la, 2 persons consider party rite?? lol. a bit sad she will be flying off after her actual bdae, but that is for her own gd too la.. when u are young and well, go as far as u can, coz ur loved ones will always be here waiting for u. dun worry abt us la baobei, we will miss u de.. hee.. ((:

PS. i am super fedup with the cath** website, cannot book tix for this afternoon's movie. Avatar 3D.

Pps. chomp chomp, here we come ((:

Ppps. if the wishes I made will come true, I am nt gg to be greedy and just wish for one, that is to return to the childhood world where we dun have so much to worry abt. I found some back in genting though.

2009-10-21T22:20:00.003+08:00

I am now super hooked to the yahoo astrology coz i think that it is quite true.. almost everyday before i start my day at work, i will take a look at that and decide what i should do and what i can avoid.. and i guess i trust it so much coz it really spells out what is in my mind.. tmr's astrology:

One of the best acts of self-nurturing is to be honest with yourself. This includes being honest about what you really need right now. If your energy level has been waning, then you need time to recharge your batteries -- give it to yourself. Or if you've had more energy than you know what to do with, then you need to get organized -- prioritize your workload today, and use that energy in a focused, efficient manner.

i guess somehow or rather,it really speaks my mind.. i wish life can be more meaningful, like more colours rather than just wakeup,work, eat,bath and sleep... the cycle goes on and on and on.... it is like a routine. but then again, what is meaningful?? dunno??? waking up with a smile? eating ur fav food?... etc...?? i guess i have not really enjoyed life... i will try to figure that out... haiz, once a month emo period is coming.... omg..

recently i am in love with lots of songs(like as usual),just wanna share them.

can anyone tell me how did the man died in the 2nd mv?? i really wanna know whether my guess is correct.. hee.. thanks to those that nv fail to make me smile (:

2009-09-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

Can you imagine I went to sing KTV with a chinese teacher? and the most zai thing is that we sang from 11am to 6pm.. LOL.. that day's theme was mayday concert. I think we sand 3/4 of their songs and there are so many nice songs of them that I din hear be4.. below is one of them.. I simply love the lyrics, a lot ... and we both agree that if 阿信is gg to get married someday, we will both cry like siao.. haha..

五月天-如烟

我坐在床前
望着窗外回忆满天
生命是华丽错觉
时间是贼偷走一切

七岁的那一年
抓住那只蝉
以为能抓住夏天
十七岁的那年
吻过他的脸
就以为和他能永远

有没有那麽一种永远
永远不改变
拥抱过的美丽
都再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能

在脸上撒野
让生离和死别都遥远
有谁能听见

我坐在床前
转过头看谁在沉睡
那一张苍老的脸
好像是我紧闭双眼
曾经是爱我的
和我深爱的
都围绕在我身边
带不走的那些
遗憾和眷恋
就化成最后一滴眼泪

有没有那麽一滴眼泪
能洗掉后悔
化成大雨降落在
回不去的街
再给我一次机会
将故事改写
还欠了他一生的
一句抱歉

有没有那麽一个世界
永远不天黑
星星太阳万物都
听我的指挥
月亮不忙着圆缺
春天不走远
树梢紧紧拥抱着树叶
有谁能听见

耳际眼前此生重演
是我来自漆黑
而又回归漆黑
人间瞬间天地之间
下次我又是谁

有没有那麽一朵玫瑰
永远不凋谢
永远骄傲和完美
永远不妥协
为何人生最后会像
一张纸屑
还不如一片花瓣
曾经鲜艳

有没有那麽一张书签
停止那一天
最单纯的笑脸和
最美那一年
书包里面装满了
蛋糕和汽水
双眼只有无猜和无邪
让我们无法无天

有没有那麽一首诗篇
找不到句点
青春永远定居在
我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有
吉他和舞鞋
笑忘人间的苦痛
只有甜美

有没有那麽一个明天
重头活一遍
让我再次感受
曾挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活
我都不浪费
不让故事这麽的后悔
有谁能听见
我不要告别

我坐在床前
看着指尖已经如烟

2009-09-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

Mr Alex Tay likes this version so I have to post again. HAHAHAHAHA

TISSUE PLS.. haha

2009-09-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

I just happen to see this is youtube. Super touching, and it feels like me.. haha

been busy as usual. But sometimes it is so fun to work with my kids. Tell u one scenario:

E went to toilet and suddenly I heard a loud scream. I ran as fast as I could and calm him down. When he is alright, I ask what happened. He told me someone outside switched off the toilet light. LOL.. he is scare of dark (although the sky is super bright). Then I drew comic scripts and told him the person is nt to be blamed because he does not know E is inside, after that he okok liao... So this is the conversation aftermy class. He held super tightly to me.
E: Teacher, I wan to go toilet.
Me: okay, i stand outside wait for u.
E: (looking at me, eyes open big) Teacher, can you guard the toilet light for me?
Me: (diao, faint) okok, teacher guard for you.
*fainted

another time when I was on course and nt in sch, i was told that he put up a show in front of the P.
E: (ran to general office) I want tio tell mr tan (my p).
Someone in office: for wat?
E: I wan use PA system tell whole sch i fail my maths exam.
Everyone: fainted.

That goes to show how cute and loving my boy is. super drama.

2009-08-26T21:12:00.000+08:00

I have gt so much so much to complain... but then about it again, i shall close both eyes to it.. the only thing i wanna say is that there is someone out there who is testing my limit.. and i showed that person a super dao face today.. LOL.. she deserve it!! seriously, the SNOs will agree with me (:

anyway i am nt very looking forward to this fri's party. my sch theme is HAwaii.. ARGH.. nightmare when it comes to thinking abt clothes.. haha.. but i am looking forward to the fun nite (:

and dearest baobei, i just realise that ms tang/mrs wong left nvss le lei..coz i saw her pic in my fren's sch website.. so qiao la.. haha.. AND I TRUELY DEEPLY MISS U.. i think ur exams should be coming soon rite.. Just wanna say JIA U MS FONG (: I <3 u

2009-08-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

If has been nt that bad since we, SNOws just regulated ourselves. (:

i understand that life can nv be smooth, sometimes this happen and sometimes that happen, but no matter wat, they are part and parcel. It is nice seeing the senior that guided me thru my attachment during the cluster meeting. somehow or rather, he had tot me quite a lot of stuff and he is still as slack as ever. I wonder how he can does that. LOL..

TGIF tmr (:
although there is test but ya, i am gg to slp till 11am on sat (:
i miss u dearest baobei, when are we gg for retail therapy and thx for every advice of urs. it always make me feel less emo, haha.. who ask me to be a cancerian?? no matter what, give me some idea for ur 21st bdae pls?? hee (:

2009-08-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

在每个人心里都有一座秘密花园，
在那里没有压力，没有伤害
只有幸福快乐的回忆，
那不是很好吗？

ps. 也许我们都迷路了。。。

2009-08-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

The older u get, the more emotional u are...
life has been so busy, to an extend i dunno what i wan to achieve everyday...
but what to do, that is life..
seriously, I am super tired...
need to relax soon...
my current fav. song, prepare ur own tissue.. HEE..

2009-07-16T17:22:00.001+08:00

I think I will be every sad next week. My 模范棒棒堂 has come to an end. And this will mean that I will have no show to make me laugh and distress anymore.. SAD.. 3 years. It has accompanied me for 3 years. It seems so long ago, but it feels like it had just shown few days back. Must find new shows to make me laugh le.. LOL

anyway, has been extremely extremely busy with work and studies. wake up at 530am everyday and gg home at 6 plus is a chore. my brain gonna explode soon. I really take my hat off to those that do part time study.. it is really a killer. Anyway, my P has done up my room, quite nice and cozy. And if any of u have any resources that u dun wan, pls donate to me.. I need to decorate my room.. HEE.. thx la.. (: will upload pixs of my room soon..

AND ya, tues was graduation. quite boring actually.. wahaha.. but ya, finally graduate le la.. same.. pixs will be loaded soon. PARTY ON SAT DARLIN (: see u

2009-07-04T14:48:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME......

21 years had passed since the day I was born. Many things took place for many reasons, but overall, these things made us grow, in a postive and negative way somehow. No matter what, life is not as long as u think they are, so go and look for what u want to achieve, but the main thing to me is that TAKE A STEP AT A TIME. It is okay to fall, but it is not okay when u dun pick urself up. SO... to everyone on earth, spend ur day wisely. even if the days made us weep, we must rmb that how they made us laugh too.

Take care everyone.
And to those that send their wishes, thank you (:

2009-07-02T20:15:00.002+08:00

1 day to friday (: woo ~~

i can't take it man, everyday is work and study tgt. i woke up today with a damn red eyes. i tot i gt wat infection but nope, it is just that i open my eyes too regularly. piangz

2 more days to bdae (: (:

nth special, it is just a day of fun at fish's party. a gd place to complain abt work (:

AND THE MOST MOST MOST HAPPIEST THING IS THAT THE BELOVED LOLLIPOP OF MINE IS HAVING THEIR TOUR CONCERT. and the 1st concert is on MY BDAE (: (: loves.

Just a side note, I NEED REST. or else I may faint soon ):

2009-06-28T18:35:00.002+08:00

28th June 2009

enjoyed myself with the NIE cliques ytd.. we went for a talk for visual impairment at SGH, then to the near potong pasir there to take our graduation gown. And we also had dinner at the coffee shop beside, super nice de lor, the food...

afterwhich, we went clarke quay for fondue, and then went party world to sing ktv till 2am.. haha.. once in a while, trs have to relax too la.. then we tonned around at clarke quay till 6.30am before we took the first train and head home..

after home, i went to bathe, dry my hair and read the newspaper, then slp at 8am, BUT, i woke up at 10 plus, coz i meeting my dear gals from the poly cliques.. hee.. we went THE CENTRAL (again) for lunch at MR CURRY. nt too bad la.. then after that went walk walk and shop shop at PS. afterwhich HOME SWEET HOME... i dun dare to take a nap(just like yuqi), just in case i can't slp tonite and cannot wake up tmr at 530am.. By the way, I am working from 7am to 7pm daily, so i guess i may just neglect my blog.. lol..

p.s bdae soon (: i dunno wat i wan for present too, so dun ask me.. haha.. (or should i say the thingy i wan is a little too expensive??) haha.. anyway, got to go relax myself before the sch reopen in less than 12 hrs. wish me luck (:

2009-06-26T17:01:00.002+08:00

26th June 2009

Ytd's stay over at my auntie mama hse was great. She cooked my fav curry, and she self make the carrot cake for me.. DAMN nice i tell u and that also explains my size.. LOl.. cause i was brought up by her .. and thx to her, my uncle papa and my sally jie, I gt the 1st present for my bdae.. They are the ones who celebrated my bdae with me every year ever since 21 years ago. *HOW SWEET.

Anyway, they brought me 2 pairs of levis signature jeans. Although I dun really wear jeans, but i still appreciate. I will try to wear them la, even when I am so used to my lok kok style.. haha.. and ya, sally jie bought me a hp thingy with my name when she went overseas, so nice of her..

I dunno why but this yr's bdae i dun feel very excited liked some of my frens who are turning 21. coz be4 I can reach 21 yrs old, I still have to work 7am to 7pm every day with the additional trainings from ARC which last till end nov, and to station at the infirmary station in sch till dunno when, and also lots of tests in ARC, the worst thing ever, SEEING THE KIDS.. I can't wait for sch to start, but at the same time, I am very fearful of school. The kids are really driving me nuts.. What to do, this is what I choose and I have to learn, HAIZ, so ya, wish me luck lor..

8 more days to my bdae !! P.S. and seriously dun buy me soft toys k, my rm no place put le.. i wan practical stuff. of coz, nt toilet papers and stuff like that la.. hee..

2009-06-21T23:04:00.004+08:00

21st June 2009

BEWARE

If u are nt a fan of lollipop, PLS DO NOT CONTINUE READING THIS, I am gg to post a few of lollipop's songs that made my day 2day..

SUPER NICE SONGS (okies, i noe, to me they are nice, whatever...) their album is out in tw but nt in s'pore, should be here in one or two weeks' time ba.. gonna get it only when they come.. WAHAHA..

shall go and slp now, all becoz of the half-yr course, starting from tmr, 9 to 6pm daily is a KILLER.. if u dun see me roaming on the streets, u noe why.. probably lying unconcious in my bed..

GOODNITE EVERYONE (:

2009-06-20T15:28:00.002+08:00

20.06.2009

ever since I came back on tuesday, i had been sleeping like nobody business.. I am really extremely sleepy.. maybe due to the lack of sleep in TW.. haha.. and this week has been gg out too.. went to celebrate sze min'a and alex's bdae.. busy week.. and next week worse.. have to attend course at pathlight from mon to fri, 9am to 6pm.. ARGH.. If i reject u when u ask me to get my ass out of the hse, u will know why.. I hope that u all understand that I am really really very tired.. but anyway, gonna meet the NIE cliques, ps and xz next week ba.. sorry ar, ps and xz, I have not find a place yet.. LOL..

and ya, FISH, I am gg to ur party on my bdae. LOL.. since my that fren haven confirm with me, I shall go and attend urs. SEE U GALS SOON.. and TW's photos should be up soon, I supposed. But in the meantime, u can read my baobei's coz her english is more correct than mine.. photo are so mafan.. okies, OFF I GO..

2009-06-06T06:57:00.001+08:00

Flying off in 3 hrs' time (: can't wait. Hee... anyway i wun be in Singapore from 6th June to 16th June. Therefore, I wanna wish loon and lala HAPPY BIRTHDAY first.

See all of u in 11 days. (:

2009-06-01T21:14:00.003+08:00

1st June

5 days to TW. omg, I am like so excited. 2nd time take plane ma..a bit gugu.. LOL.. and it is the first time i am gg alone with just one fren, my dearest baobei... really have to thx her for the confirmation of air tix to the accommodation to the intinery... finally can get to fly be4 my 21st bdae...

now that TSN meeting is over, I can relax a little.. tmr whole day of meeting again, wed half day meeting and then Learning Journey for staff, going marina barrage (:

before i end off, wanna present a song that nearly made me cry when it was first played over the radio at my workplace.all thx to shi shi blogging in her blog...

By Tank
如果我变成回忆

如果我变成回忆

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越没力越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你

如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记

PS. darlin, take care of urself when I am away (: shall meet up with u soon and jia u for examz but at the same time dun stress urself up (: love u.. and for the pix of the rebonding, shall show u personally coz my face too ugly.. dun wanna post here.. muackz

2009-05-29T21:55:00.002+08:00

29.05.2009

HELLO everyone, so long nv come my blog liao..okies, i am super sian today coz my sis and bro nt coming home.. one go camp and the other go playing.. lol.. sian la.. home alone with my parents, so youtube shall be my best fren tonite.. hasn't been watching a lot of shows this week, can catch up now..

i am still super worried about mon's meeting.
i still haven finish packing my luggage.

but 2 happy things, finally gg to do my hair, it has been wired for dunno how long. and with consultation with a couple of ppl, i decided to still go to the one darlin ron recommend. (: AND dearest baobei 7 days and 2 hrs to landin in taipei (:

with lots of love, to my darlin and baobei and all those that listen to me complaining all these while.. esp the teacher who today tell me that my job is very 'wei da'.. i may bt make a difference in ur child's life but then i am still glad u appreciate (:

2009-05-19T07:03:00.002+08:00

(yawn, yawn, yawn)^100..

i can't stop yawning starting from 530am this morning, dunno why the time passes so fast last nite even though i slept at 11pm. ARGH. have to ta han till 6pm today. ENDURE and sleepy bugs PLS GO AWAY... coffee pls.

2009-05-18T06:52:00.002+08:00

1st day of official work and i am so dead tired. ):

2 more weeks to holidays. endure.

2009-05-12T19:59:00.003+08:00

For u:

在人生的道路上，停一停，歇一歇在所难免。。。休息够了，就得往目标前进咯 (:

NiceSong！！放了爱

你指向远方爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动是泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光空中翱翔
还得乔装安份靠在你的肩膀

放了爱为了爱
这不是我该怎么生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢我笑得开朗
你越温柔我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福何必要模仿
心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁
加满自由我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱为了爱
这不是我该怎么生活
放了爱会明白
有种拥有叫做放手

我的心为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱为了爱
这不是我想要的生活
放了爱你会明白
有种拥有叫做放手
放了爱

2009-05-10T13:10:00.002+08:00

practicum ended this friday, but official work will start next next monday. 1 week of rest for us, but i guess i only have one day. LOl. monday was doc appt, tue rest, wed meet supervisor for debrief, thurs nie debrief, fri induction + learning journey to northlight.... busy week. but the gd thing is that TW trip is drawing nearer (: gt to save as much $$ as possible so that I can spend more there. and dearest baobei, i haven finish researching on the maps. ARGHH... will send you a copy after i find all.. hee.. ps ar

birthday is also drawing nearer, in 2 mths' time, i will be old.. gt to think of what i wanna get. Now i only have ipod in mind, coz my mp3 is dying on me soon *hint hint*. Is it that ipod only have 2 colours?? only black and white.. haha.. black nicer. june, july are broke mths, too many frens bdae in these 2 mths le.

2009-05-07T10:33:00.002+08:00

Just for laugh. Extracted from the email peishi send me.. (:

finally duty at infirmary has come to an end *hopefully it will be permanently cancelled.. * 7am to 6pm is no joke.. super tired..

2009-04-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

24.04.2009

very in love with the 2 songs,esp the one jolin sang (:

P.S. I hope june can be here soon, I need a break (:

2009-04-23T10:49:00.002+08:00

Be it good or bad... 6 withdrawal observations, 1 in class support observation and 1 withdrawal session by NIE sup is finally over. YEAH (: only left 2 reports for principal, CTs and SCM to complete in the next 2 weeks and I can start thinking about the TW trip (ok, perhaps more work to come be4 I can fly, but think positive). HAHA..

1 day to friday, 5 days to end of baobei's exams. HAPPY TIME soon (:

*mood swings are really killers.

2009-04-19T17:42:00.002+08:00

Went to the Lee's concert ytd. I think it was nt bad, esp when i can see Daniel Chan. He is so shuai. (: i still rmb i always go gaga over him when i was in sec 1, tgt with nicholas. LOl. I like all the songs all the pppl sang, esp luo zhi xiang's song 做得到. I din noe it was in his previous album. HAha..

I also like jolin's song 柠檬草的味道. It was such a long ago song but till date, the lyrics still make me very gt feeling.

柠檬草的味道

我们都没错
只是不适合
我要的
我现在才懂得
快乐是我的
不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责

P.S. I dunno why tmr is monday and i dun feel like noeing. Another few weeks i will endure, till the day i can relax. Love u baobei (:

2009-04-16T19:32:00.002+08:00

I once thought that golf is such an easy sport, but i am super extra wrong. Today for contact time, we played golf as part of the healthy living thingy my sch is promoting. It requires a lot of strength to hold that stick, and need to use ur back strength. It is like so hard, esp me when my eye hand coordination is so sucky. LOl.

but i still love my sch, quite fun to have these activities (:

tired day

2009-04-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

If i din rmb wrongly, today is his 20th bdae. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PRINCE.

although u are nt my fav. lol. xiaojie rox

2009-04-14T12:15:00.002+08:00

I have gt so many stuff to do that i dunno where to start? Haiz..

And it is like 3 more hrs before my next class, what to do now?? clueless manx. Why can't the teacher move his spelling to before recess( i am doing in class support for my boy's spelling), so that i dun have to stay in sch from 635am all the way to 400pm. Very tired one lei, nt the work load but the waiting time. Lol.

u noe in an office, u can't appear to be nth to do de lor, have to pretend busy. But then i finish this week work last weekend, then have to wait till friday before i can update my lesson plans and stuff. How to find so many things to do, u tell me??? Although i admit i am surfing thru hotels for tw and listening to youtube (ya, listen only)while typing my weekly lesson plans, but then sad to say, i finish all my shows, what's worse is that the shows are all so funny de but u cannot laugh out loud. I think i might have internal injuries. LOl. ok, stop my ranting, i wanna go read my storybook liao, i dun care le, coz i finish all my work for the week even though it is tue today. SIAN.

2009-04-13T14:56:00.001+08:00

My ‘S’ boy is so sweet today. He made me happy (:

S: I dun have a brown colour pencil.
Me: Ok, I find one for you. *taking from my barang barang bag*
S: Thank you Baby.
Me: *shocked* huh??
S: I said thank you baby la.
Me: *act blur* Who is ur baby?
S: you la.

After lesson, while walking back to class.
S: you know what?
Me: What?
S: my mummy is my daddy baby lei. My jie jie is my auntie baby. So u are my baby la.
Me: *smiling and fainting at his words at the same time*
This is one kind that makes u feel satisfied. But there is another kind that makes ur blood boil. I shall nt mention him in order nt to spoil my mood for now.

I am already in my holiday mood, but there is still so much work to complete.
GAMBATE!!!

2009-04-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

原来人生没有我们想像的那么长。。。

2009-04-03T14:49:00.002+08:00

Supervision for nugget is over. I think God has heard my prayer. I pray to him ytd and this morning. He had granted me my wish: my boy is here in sch, my internet is working and nugget is kind enuf to 'accept' my lesson plan.

I am so proud of my little boy today. Normally he learn 4 words in 1 hour, today he learn 8 words in half an hour and it was a miracle that he spelt all the words correctly. GOOD JOB BOY (: I believe u can do it, so have a little more confidence in urself.

I am gonna relax for .... maybe 12 hours??? coz i have yet to plan for lessons next week. Got to start working on that this sunday. LOl.

2009-04-01T21:57:00.003+08:00

This is for the dear SNOs, my lecturer showed that to us during poly and it is really touching (:

ENJOY!!!

P.S.2 more days.. so scary !!!!

2009-04-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

Dearest baobei, wanna share this with u. maybe it will be useful when u are considering?

miss ya, as always (:

2009-03-30T22:49:00.001+08:00

我只是想要幸福
作詞：劉虞瑞
作曲：陳國華
主唱：蘇永康

因為世界有個你　給我呼吸的勇氣
就算淚光模糊了一切　在我心中依然美麗

生命最美的奇蹟　原來就是與你相遇
是你握住我手心　去面對風和雨
把結局交給上帝決定

我只是想要幸福　用一生努力追逐
讓星光帶路　不管多無助
每一步都銘心刻骨

我只是想要幸福　為了愛不怕豪賭
我不會認輸　我不願讓步
守在你身邊再多苦我都已滿足

生命最美的奇蹟　原來就是與你相遇
是你握住我手心　去面對風和雨
把結局交給上帝決定

我只是想要幸福　用一生努力追逐
讓星光帶路　不管多無助
每一步都銘心刻骨

我只是想要幸福　為了愛不怕豪賭
我不會認輸　我不願讓步
守在你身邊再多苦我都已滿足

我只是想要幸福　用一生努力追逐
讓星光帶路　不管多無助
每一步都銘心刻骨

我只是想要幸福　為了愛不怕豪賭
我不會認輸　我不願讓步
守在你身邊再多苦我都已滿足

Listening to songs is the best way to get ur heart healed (: Enjoy

2009-03-30T21:24:00.002+08:00

"Because u can make an impact in their lives", she said.

I think that was sth I said to her some mths back, but now I am doubting myself. For once, I feel like I lost my way, the way to many things, my dreams, my goals, etc.

I think I need to find myself back soon, and believe in that sentence again. JIA U la, to me and to u (:

2009-03-30T08:53:00.002+08:00

just like what i have predicted, 11 hours (or maybe 12) later, i feel unhappy again. Something must be terribly wrong somewhere. one 'M' makes my CT, FT and SCM chositic (how spell??). Doesn't she noe that they need to teach too?? and what's more they teach at diff periods. HOW TO GET THEM TO SIT TGT??

2009-03-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

if crying can make u feel better, pls feel free to do so (:

i promise nt to laugh at u. =X

2009-03-29T20:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes some simple things can make u smile from within. I am happy today, but maybe not 11 hours later.

I just realised that I have the tendency to complain and make a hooha out of it, but in the end, i will still forgive the ones who made me sad/angry. This is life I guess. Next week is a tough week, I hope we survived. If we do, I think there is nth tougher that we are scare of le ba. *pray with <3 *

2009-03-28T18:42:00.004+08:00

Edited: I am gg to forgive her, thus i deleted all the whinings and complains... she is a human after all.. =X

ENUF of ranting. I have a list of things to do this weekend and next week:

plan 11 lesson plans
make resources
print things
find games for my kids
do differentiated worksheet for my kids
pray that my kid with MR will nt absented himself again
pray that my kid with ASD will stop telling me history of pokemon and bakugan
pray that nugget will give me a pass
pray that the FT will not kill me for changing here and there
pray that I WILL SURVIVE and eat macnugget.

cool down.. cool down... breathe in... breathe out... ok.. i shall continue with my work.

PS. I miss baobei.

PPS. I miss the cliques.

PPPS. I miss myself.

2009-03-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

during staff meeting today, our vice principal made us laugh like mad. And he confess that when he was a student, he did 'sell' his voice to do the recording for the PSLE listening compre. LOl. End of the week, let's party !!! for 2 hrs maybe (:

2009-03-25T09:17:00.001+08:00

My sch vice principal is so funny man. Today, our sch is having fire drill, then he has to make an announcement thru the PA system coz our principal is not in. Then because he sounds really like a DJ, for once I thought why the radio is on. LOl. He says, “Boys and Girls, This is ur vice principal…..” . After that, all of us come to assemble at the parade square. Then I overheard the teachers saying, “Haha, … Boys and Girls, This is ur vice principal talking…. For once I thought we are having listening comprehension test. Do we need to listen to the close passage once more?” I am like gg to laugh out very loud lor.. but I din la.. so funny can.. But true la, my vice principal really gt the DJ voice. But I still think that fire drill is very boring =X

2009-03-23T08:48:00.002+08:00

Was looking at the 5 stages of grief that yuqi posted. I think I am in the denial stage now. LOl.

I am denying tat today is monday.
I am denying tat I am in school now.
I am denying tat the first person I see in school today is the principal.
I am denying tat observations by my CT is on tue, wed, thurs.
I am denying tat I have to do these for 2 years.

I feel like killing the one who on the air-con in school. It is so freaking cold even with a thick jacket. As u know, I am someone who is only afraid of hot, u can imagine how cold is it now rite?? Just turn up the temperature wun kill him i guess. LOL. I want holiday. super tired ):

2009-03-20T21:56:00.002+08:00

I am nt feeling happy.

Treat me ice-cream...

2009-03-18T23:49:00.003+08:00

Heard this song for the first time today. A nice one, sounds like the female version of 罗志祥 de 搞笑.. listen to the lyrics.. so nice.

2009-03-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

Oh Shit, I am sick. ):

Anyway i spent more than 200 bucks today. Very heartache but ya, long term investment la. Gt myself quite some resources from Carrefour and from Hougang Mall. And ya, I finally gt the book that I reserved with the library, SUBHAS ANANDAN: The best I could. Really a nice book, easy to read and detailed...

Anyway, i dun like 'M', she always spoil my day and make me feel that i din put in enuf effort. Watever man, I DUN CARE LE LA!!!

P.S. I still love my dearest baobei, always made me day (:

2009-03-17T00:23:00.003+08:00

I was looking thru the net to look for tips to relieve stress and I found this article. Hee. I think all SNOs are very stressed now because we are still trying very hard to get things done. I dunno why trainees have to do so much work when after u are trained what is expected of u may not be like that. My sch CT is ok with my work but the NSC always ask me to do in a diff way. It is very troublesome to do the same thing but in diff format. I feel like giving up when I was editing my lesson plans just now for the N time. It is so hard to make them look perfect.

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/5-instant-soothers-for-high-stress-times-383709/

Hope we can relieve some stress ba. Tmr shall be a happier day (cross finger and pray hard).

2009-03-15T14:37:00.001+08:00

I finally found the title of this song. All thx to shi shi (:

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

一个人就好
Just in case u wanna see the lyrics for the entire song:

作词/作曲：徐旻铃编曲：郑楠
演唱：刘力扬

街挤满了欢笑
太不适合眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好

爱说退就退潮
我松开手回忆却没放掉
未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好
一个人就好

2009-03-13T21:11:00.003+08:00

I think my stress level has gone up to the max now. super tired, super clueless as to what i wanna do. I can't seem to find a direction that i wan my kids to follow. The more lessons i conduct, the more I discover their weaknesses, and it also means that I have to change my lesson plan every single day. It is really tiring when ur kids can only sit for 15 mins but u are required to make him sit for 60 mins. You know how it feels when u are asked to do sth that u totally dun like?? I hope I did tried my best to help, but the improvement is so small. I do feel satisfied when they can do sth that their teachers said they can't, but some old old teachers are not appreciative and think that they are improving so slow. I feel like slapping them in the face and tell them to be patient, but ya, as a trainee, i better stay in my position. lol. Parents are another that is hard to deal with, but at least some are quite supportive. I start to doubt myself now, is this the route i wanna take? 2 more years, I guess I will reconsider then. For now, I just wan to sleep, sleep as much as possible, becoz i am so so so tired.

PS. i am so in love with eddie currently. His show is so nice, a handsome nice bad boy. At least he cheered me up today. Lol

2009-03-08T19:01:00.004+08:00

Went to the e 乐大赏 ytd. It was a bad day to begin as it rained the whole day. But luckily, the rain stopped just before we went in at 5pm. And this is what we saw, a small patch of rainbow in the sky above us. Saw many artists and ya, SHOW is so shuai and cute (:

pictures time. sorry if the pics are blur because my hp cam is a bit old. hee

enjoy my day, all thx to darlin ron for the tix (:

2009-03-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

i am contradicting (how to spell??) myself now, now i wish time pass slower. Lol. i gt so many things on hand but so little time. i have student who writes in font size 72, some dun bother to come school, some refuse to go special sch when they can't cope at all, some are too guai but is supposed to have ADHD. HOW?? i am truely tired. Tired of planning for everyone to fit in. I will be back after i sort my stuff, which takes forever...

alreadydie educator, yuqi, yes we are. LOL

2009-02-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

10 more mths to Christmas!!

I wish I could fast forward time...

2009-02-23T21:42:00.001+08:00

慢慢的这份爱悄悄的住下来
深深的在心理没人看得出来
安静的但却一直都在是你默默的爱

慢慢的这份爱已经变成依赖
浅浅的笑容里却让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白你默默的爱

2009-02-23T18:54:00.002+08:00

I am feeling F***ing pain now cos i just pluck out the tooth beside my wisdom tooth. DAMN. okies, my stupid wisdom tooth choose to shift its place and broke the one beside it, and then it become extra pain. And being a little bit richer next mth (coz this yr gt the gst thingy), i went ahead to pluck the tooth out. And now it feel so painful. ARGH.

Today is the first day of my school and tmr i can't talk. Lol. gt mc but i think it is nt too good if i take mc on the second day of sch. SIAN. sch is so far so gd la.. hope it get better ba.

2009-02-22T13:09:00.003+08:00

2009-02-18T23:06:00.001+08:00

ok, very good. i finally gt my slides and can sleep well le.

all the best to us.

i do realise that i love to complain but in the end i usually still does help. '-'''

2009-02-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

ppt presentation is tmr and i haven got the slides and info as to what to present yet. HOW GREAT can it be? ppl who choose to do only the compiling part are not compiling properly and asking ppl for help. well, i finish all my individual assignments but i dun feel like helping. THIS IS VERY BAD OF ME. but i should leave some work for them in case they complain that i did all and they did nth. LOl. actually they really did nth except compiling.

PS. i dunno wht i am talking abt, but i just wan to complain. Coz i dun like ppl to send me emails at 4am and tell me what to present at 930am tmr. i dun like last min. off i go. TO SLEEP OF COZ, so that i can wake up at 4am to receive mails. ):

PPS. my spree bag is finally gg to arrive soon (:

2009-02-17T21:42:00.003+08:00

I am feeling super stressed up now. And I think all of my course mates are stressed up too. Can you imagine 8 projects in 3 days. JUST 3 FREAKING DAYS!! and is not like those short short de, counseling and working with parents and reflective journal took me almost 7500 words, brochures took me 3 freaking days to edit to make it perfect. And the rest, I am too lazy to count. practicum is just next week, can u imagine urself unprepared for everything and u are thrown into the sea?? I like the sea, but i dun like to be thrown in!!! It is either u float or drown. ):

Feeling sad too, about a lot of things, the workload, the people, the environment, the things i see, even food also make me sad. I dunno why i have this feeling of sadness. but ya, i think 'big auntie ' gonna come soon ba. BE POSITIVE, i told myself. but sometimes it is easier said than done. How to be positive when all the things are so negative.

I need a break...
A mental break...
or else I am gonna have mental block soon !!!...

I would like my entry to end with a happy note. So ya, I met my principle, he is a nice middle aged man. Very nice and easy to talk with, and he reserved a table in the staff room for me (: Wish me all the best for practicum ba (: God Bless

2009-02-10T18:45:00.002+08:00

Sch are so efficient nowadays.
Instead of me calling the school next week,
the school called me today.
And they had kindly helped me booked an appointment to meet the principal next monday morning.
I think it will be an excellent school ba.
cross my fingers, i do hope so (:

2009-02-09T21:58:00.003+08:00

Had a good time with Mrs chia and darlin ron.
Somehow, I missed secondary sch life so much.

原来人是会变的，
那以前那么坚持又是为了什么呢？

很想去相信爱情，
但却越来越不相信。

2009-02-07T13:31:00.002+08:00

I found some overdued photos in my folder and thought that i will just post that up (:

PS. i seriously think that I look like a pig ):

2009-02-04T19:07:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for nt posting coz I have gt like 10 projects in 16 days.
All the projects come at the same time and time is really really really very short. ):

Anyway, I was doing research for my paper for the part on counseling. I was told to define counseling and you know what I found. IT SAYS...
counseling is counseling when u think it is counseling; it is not when u think it is just an informal talk.

.........

I was like shocked. They gave me three freaking pages about the definition. talking about all the chim chim words but this is the conclusion that was draw out of that three freaking pages. Sian...

but I still look forward to meeting my darlin (:

Life told me to look forward and dun look back,
but somehow it is the past that makes me happier.
All in all,
life is sad ):

2009-01-28T15:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO PPL,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

although it is the third day already.

new year has been super boring as usual. nothing special except for the lesser and lesser income per year. lol.

okies, anyway now i dunno what happen to my stupid eye. I dunno is infection or sth, it is damn painful now. Such sian stuff always happen during new year, think by tmr if it does not inprove, i am gonna find my lovely doc liao.

off i go, to enjoy this super boring new year. with tons of assignments accompanying me too ):

2009-01-21T21:40:00.004+08:00

Got to know my school posting today. I would say that it is not that bad la. I believe that god is fair to everyone. Since i dun get my ideal school, it is not too bad to have a quite nice de supervisor. I should be contented and i shall be. BUT the big problem comes when the school is supporting dyslexia, i can't pronounce those phonics u know. HAIZ, anyone knows and is willing to teach me???

Anyway i took a bus at YCK and I must say that people nowadays are really pretty stressed up. U know hor there is this guy sitting in front of me, he started talking to himself very very loudly and the content of his words is all about insulting a lady seated opp him. He talked to himself super loudly about her all the way from YCK to hougang. He insulted her rite from the top to the bottom of her body. Although i work in this field, i still think that our country still have a long road to go in providing help for those in adulthood. So what if we help them in the early years, their adulthood is still pretty not acceptable. That shall be a target in the years to come ba.

BUT...

I am truely amazed by how the public reacts. Since in our field, we always say that we need to promote public awareness about special needs, I think the media and govt, etc have done a pretty good job. No one bothers about what he says and react as if he is just someone 'normal'. If this were to happen 10 years ago, I think he will be asked to get off the bus. I think the public is really more educated and more tolerance to these people already, but i dunno why i see so many people talking to themselves these few days on public transport? Maybe we are all too stressed. I am stressed too, haha.. so off i go to touch up on my assignment(:

anyway it is anderson pri. (:

2009-01-19T02:47:00.002+08:00

you choose not to mend the broken pieces,
left it untouched and thought that it will heal.
PS. dun worry, I am just PMS-ing.

2009-01-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

I AM SUPER SUPER SUPER TIRED...

anD...

I think i am gg to be sick soon.

PS. I miss youtube so much, haven been watching much of that since school starts.In fact, i 1 week nv watch le. SIAN.

PPS. Pray hard that i go to a good and supporting school and get a real nice and will give me pass de supervisor. pray pray pray...

2009-01-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

我好爱这3首歌的歌词...

因为太真实了...

搞笑

那一條牙膏在對我傻笑
嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡想鬧就鬧
好快樂少了人嘮叨

藍色的碗盤多買了一套
我忘了沒有人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑藉著熱鬧掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑偏要說著一個人真好
當人群散了突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
還在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麼熬
這麼多年早就習慣有妳的撒嬌
我想我能熬但是至少要讓我知道
妳好不好

我們的小狗食量變好小
眼神裡常常顯的無聊
他習慣睡覺的床位少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑藉著熱鬧掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑偏要說著一個人真好
當人群散了突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
我在搞笑卻在最後眼淚拼命掉
妳的離開失去多少我計算不了
忙完了一天　突然覺得又何必辛勞
對誰炫耀
還在搞笑是否擁有麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌卻避不開催淚的曲調
我徹夜胡鬧希望聽到有人會提到你好不好

第二顺位

幸福不灭

2009-01-06T20:13:00.002+08:00

I saw the sun rises in boonlay today.

I saw the sun sets in boonlay today.

What a long and tiring day!

And this is to continue on tues, thurs and fri for the next few weeks/months to come.

2009-01-05T12:59:00.004+08:00

5TH jAN 2009

School is starting tmr, but rite now I am having the pre-school-reopening depression. Just like yq. lol.

One part of me wanted school to start so i wun be slacking at home, but the other part of me doesn't want to do the projects and take the long ride to school. School starts at 830am but train service only starts at 630am. How am I gg to be in school on time??? and worse, all classes end at 530pm. I dun like the long long long breaks in between. Why nt one hr break and then go home earlier?? Haiz.

Enough on ranting, I shall act guai and go 'read' my notes for tmr. Oh, just one last ranting, when is luo zhi xiang's album gonna come out?? I love all his songs, can make me cry. loL. faster faster come out.

edited: Train service starts at 5.45am. (:

2009-01-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

I am quite disappointed.
Disappointed in the things that remained unchanged.
I tell myself that it will change,
but it is still unchanged.

Some random stuff...

2009-01-01T14:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2009!!!

New year, New blogskin. LOL...

Hope that this will be a better year (:

Chinese New Year coming soon....

2008-12-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

SHE, the one who occupied 1/3 of my life journey, is none other than the dearest baobei of mine (: Today is her special day, nah, not her wedding day but her 20th birthday. A letter from the sweetie to her baobei…

Dear Baobei,

The second decade of ur life starts today, how do u feel? I hope u felt blessed for ur birth and ur mummy and daddy’s hard work over the years. I am grateful for ur mummy and daddy too, coz without them, I will have missed out the 1/3 of my life journey enjoying ur company.

You know that I dun say words that touches one’s heart but I am really feeling blessed that u are there with me. From the first day when I entered secondary school, I got to know u (luckily u choose to sit beside me. HAHA). First 2 years spent studying (not really la) and shopping every Friday. I could still rmb our daily routine, the town, the bugis, the suntec, the laksa, the tower record, the 501 or 502?.... Enjoyable, fun and the not-so-many-problems-to-solve years. Then we got gaga over ur Ayumi and my Nicholas; the blah blah and the blah blah blah… How I missed those days, the simple yet happy days. Then we moved on to Sec 3 and 4, and we had lesser time tgt. After O’s and everything, we somehow get back tgt back again.. our usual shopping days.. How did we get back tgt after 2 years of not-so-much-shopping ar? I can’t rmb le lei. I only rmb we have the same person to complain about during those years.. come to think of it, the person is actually quite a nice fren… maybe we misunderstood her LOL.

Dearest Baobei, over the years, thanks for everything. I dunno how to say here, but u should know what I thanked u for. For 4 years ago, u start calling me sweetie (I can’t imagine 4 years had passed). For the many years ago, u taught me how to love ur family and friends. For the few days ago, u taught me that attitude is very important (I got listen de). For the many many things that are coming along the way. I know with u around, I will nv be alone (:

On this special day, just wanna wish u HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!! Enjoy this second decade of ur life (:

May God Bless U:D

Love u and support u as always (:

With Love,

Sweetie <3

2008-12-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

I just finished choosing a new blogskin and finish editing it. like FINALLY.

Why issit always so difficult to edit those html codes? Lol.

I can't wait to upload it, because it is my fav. skin till now. But I have to keep it till 01.01.2009. coz I want it to be new.

Random (:

Christmas is over, but baobei's bdae and new year countdown is next (:

2008-12-25T20:42:00.001+08:00

I want to buy 罗志祥's new album.
I only know it will be out tmr in TW but dunno when it will be out in S'pore.
Meanwhile, I am so in love with this song. MV is nt out yet thus i will upload the live version.
I love the lyrics so much (:

2008-12-25T12:15:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE,
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Celebrated christmas eve with the dearest gals. Haven seen them for quite long and we had fun crapping.Hee. Love them lots and thx for the christmas gift (:
Lollipop
From the dearest baobei

Ginger Breadman
From the dearest ah ru

Jewellery Box
From the dearest ah ning

I simply love Christmas, the season of giving (:

2008-12-22T18:04:00.002+08:00

The 310th post...
Time really flies..
9 more days to the end of this year, 2008.
I had been reflecting what have I done for the past year, and i realised that things really changed over the years.
For the better or for the worst???
There are times when I felt happy.
There are times when I felt sad.
There are times when I felt angry.
There are times when I felt disappointed, disappointed in the things that was built up over the years to make me believe.
BUT it will be over soon...
9 more days and a new page for the year 2009 shall be written...

2008-12-18T01:35:00.002+08:00

Went far east and suntec with baobei today, bought quite a lot of things. We went in NOVO and both of us came out with 5 pairs of shoes. 3 mine and 2 hers, we are so crazy in love with MELISSA shoes but they are nt coming to S'pore anymore. SAD. Then went to HARRIS and bought 3 books. Wanted to buy Twilight but was out of stock.
AND

seriously, we want to complain abt that bus service, we waited so long for the stupid bus, almost gg to an hr but the bus refused to come. In the end, we walked all the way to the other side of suntec and took another one. SO ANGRY la. wasted my time.

13 more days to the end of the year. But before that, I am gg to celebrate Christmas with the dearest ppl of my life. Can't wait to see them (:
Hope that next year will be a better year (:

2008-12-14T17:17:00.003+08:00

在爱情的世界里，
你想当一个坦白的坏人，
还是一个放手的好人。。。

方炯鑌-坏人

作曲:方炯镔作词:马嵩惟

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程
爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人
容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

2008-12-08T23:21:00.001+08:00

Hi guys, how are u all recently?? It has been damn cold these few days.

So random (:

Anyway u guys watched the last epi of the channel 8 eight o'clock show nt?? I find that quite touching. This is the first time I watched the entire epi.. I also felt touched by what they say. Sometimes, we just dun feel happy because we are nt easily satisfied. BUT look at them, they try all means to keep themselves alive but some others are taking their lives away from themselves.

I once thought I was pitiful too, but then LOOK, at least I have food, clothes and shelter. WHAT MORE TO ASK FOR?? It is okay to feel lost but pls turn back and spare a thought for those that are fighting for their place in this tiny world. They can do it so can U.

知足常乐…

such a random post ?!

2008-12-07T15:55:00.003+08:00

突然好想你

詞/曲/阿信

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音
不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今終於讓自己屬於我自己
只剩眼淚還騙不過自己

突然好想你你會在哪裡過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你帶我走過最難忘的旅行然後留下最痛的紀念品

我們那麼甜那麼美那麼相信那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你你會在哪裡過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然聽到你的消息

最怕此生已經決心自己過沒有你卻又突然聽到你的消息

PS. Mr W, 祝你明天生日快乐。

好想回到最初的从前，

但时间回不去了。

2008-12-06T19:44:00.000+08:00

And so I was tagged by Baobei

"According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. And then tag 5 people."

I love my family more than anyone else.
I treat my baobei like my boyfriend. (I hope she dun mind)
I see no point in having a boyfriend.
I dislike guys who smoked and get themselves drank daily.
I am a emo person. (I hope baobei still likes me)
I like black coloured hair.
I like to eat whenever I have nth to do.
I dun like to exercise.
I am an unhealthy person.
I named my beloved bear using *blah blah’s name.
I write all my complaints and frustrations on paper and tear them away.
I love receiving cards and presents, especially those that are hand-made.
I love guys who can cook great meals.
I owned more than 6 water bottles (in all sizes) at home.
I once wanted to be a lawyer.
I am a selfish person; always want things to go in my ways.
I can’t watch a show without sub-titles.
I always cry when I watch dramas.
I need to pee whenever I see the toilet sign. (but it is better controlled now)
I am never a happy person.

And I will like to tag on anyone who reads this (:

2008-12-02T00:33:00.003+08:00

The very bored me is here to blog again (:
I shall upload pictures of some food that i had taken. Not yummy but edible. Life as a hsewife can be quite fun sometimes, when u dun have to wash after cooking..HEHE

Last nite's dinner.

Last sat's lunch. My fav. baby porridge (:

I am so bored.

I am so bored............

PS. Can 12th Dec faster come?? I am so broke ):
But I am still gg gai gai wif baobei later in the afternoon. HEE!!

2008-12-01T13:56:00.001+08:00

有一天，小狮子问母狮子：“妈妈，幸福在哪里？”
母狮子回答：“幸福在你尾巴上！”
于是…
小狮子为了寻找它的幸福…
不停的追着自己的尾巴跑…
怎么追也追不到…
小狮子又跑去问母狮子：“妈妈，你说幸福在我的尾巴上，可是为什么我找不到呢？”
母狮子回答：“幸福是不必刻意追寻的，只要你不停地往前走，幸福就会一直跟在你身后……

懂得爱你得人会在适当的时候放你走，让你自由自在地去寻找你要的幸福... (adapted from i-weekly)

2008-11-29T17:42:00.004+08:00

why would someone hurt the others when they know that how sad it will be to lose someone they love so deeply?

the friendly world seems to be more like a stranger to us now.

P.S. i can't wait for next tue (: going gai gai.

2008-11-28T00:39:00.004+08:00

Went to my nanny's hse. Thought the hse will be nt so nice coz the outside of it is so old, but then the inside appears to be so nice la.. Got renovate really gt diff. Anyway, as usual played with Ryan and Renfred and took a bus to causeway wif Sally jie for some shopping. (:

Happiness comes from every little thing that happens around u (: SMILE

Ryan (:

Renfred (:

2008-11-26T23:09:00.003+08:00

Raymond Lam is coming to S'pore tmr(: but as usual, i can't get to see him.
First, I am gg to my nanny's hse. Her new hse to be exact. Can't wait to play with Ryan.
Second, I dunno how to go to the place Raymond Lam is gg to appear.
):

PS. I dunno why I had so many dreams in the nite nowadays. I dun usually dream but ytd i dreamt that Prince from Lollipop became my neighbour and we had some coversations. totally hilarious lor. LOL. Can i request for Xiao Jie instead?

2008-11-25T12:07:00.002+08:00

"爱情路没有勉强的幸福..."

How I miss chan xiao dong's voice. Heard him sing this on radio this morning.

P.S. hotmail is freaking irritating, i can't open my mails again ):

2008-11-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

I CAN'T HELP FALLING IN LOVE WITH LOLLIPOP TODAY!!

THEY ARE SO DAMN SHUAI CAN!!

AND THEY ARE SO SKINNY.

IF THEY ARE GG TO HAVE A CONCERT HERE, I SWEAR I GONNA GO AND WATCH.

AND THE BEST OF THE BEST TODAY IS THAT THE HOST FOR THE SESSION IS CRUZ, MY IDOL TOO. HE LOOK SO DASHING. WAHAHA!! DOUBLE SHOU HUO TODAY.

BAOBEI, SEE U TMR. LOVELOVE (:

PS. I AM TOO HAPPY TO SLEEP TONITE.

2008-11-23T14:23:00.003+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!!!

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH LIAN. May you be happy and pretty always. See ya and the lovelies next wednesday.

AND...

I AM GG TO SEE THE LOVELY LOLLIPOP LATER ON!!! (: thanks darlin for accompanying me. LOVELY XIAOJIE HERE I COME.

I am meeting baobei tmr too.

SEE, I AM HAPPY (:(:(:

2008-11-18T18:10:00.003+08:00

So many things, So little time...
Woke up at 8am on Sunday to meet ah lian and fish @9am to eat delifrance breakfast @ compass. Wasn't as great as what is shown on TV la.. The variety of food was too little and will get very full after eating only a few bread. And ya, ah lian, yuqi and lanhui were so sweet, the other day, they went batam and they did this for me.. So NICE!!! they even went to buy a box and put that badge in. Thanks lovelies (:

And lately, I dunno why but no matter how long i sleep, i still feel so tired.. maybe because the weather is too cooling and like the other animals, i need to go into habernation (i dunno how to spell la) mode.

P.S. Dearest baobei, hang on there, it's gonna be over soon. Jia you and miss ya (:

P.S.S: edited. Thanks yq and lh and lian for their sweetness. (:

2008-11-15T02:27:00.003+08:00

was extremely tired now. Had been helping up in the childcare since monday,all for the sake of today. Anyway our childcare is gonna have a K2 graduation cum funfair thingy and everyone is working damn hard. When i left at 11 plus juz now, a lot of ppl are still there helping. SO PLS COME AND SUPPORT US! Ya, must come ar, starts at 230 for the performance and the funfair will start at 330. A lot of things to buy too (: My childcare is quite near to the hougang swimming complex, come if u can make it.

I need to be sleeping now. Meeting hl for lunch later.

Hmm... and I shall love LSX tonight coz after 5 mths of nt seeing him, he finally eats his lunch (he last time die also wun touch the food de lor) and he says other words other than the gada gada (he can only make this sound la) he used to only say. He say ok and other words to me lei, i suddenly feel so touched. Haha

off to bed now and i miss retail therapy with the baobei and darlins. <3

2008-11-12T23:14:00.003+08:00

This is a super tiring but really really happy week (:

I am back in my previous childcare to help them up with their end of yr function which will be held this sat. And obviously the best thingy is to see my lovely kids.. still as cute and adorable, but i think they all grow up le... the best thing to work in a childcare is that u experience their growing up days. If one day i am tired of my now job, i may consider gg back.

And ya, I think Singapore is really small.. Baobei, I tell u hor, today I went library to kill time, then i picked up a you-weekly that was published last yr and guess what?? I SAW BLAH BLAH DE PHOTO LEI!!! he is in some photoshot thingy. I was like flipping thru and then saw this macho guy who looked so familiar. Then i went on to look at his profile, it is really him lor... coz his name has a very unique spelling la.. WOW.. after 8 yrs, i met him again, although is on the magazine la.. Brought back lots of memories, i used to go gaga over him and Mr. W. lol..It looked like the yrs passed too fast for me althoygh i always complain how slow the days passed..haha..i still rmb the days when baobei say about her triple blah and my double blah.

Ps.I shall love Lincoln Lee tonight coz he managed to rmb my name after 5 mths i left the childcare. He has always been my sweetie pie. (: